Saturday 12 November 2016

Fate

As well as souls and other nonsense, I’m a big believer in fate and destiny. I believe that everything happens for a reason, even if it doesn’t happen. I think that there is a time and place for everything and eventually it will all fall into place.

I think we all have an idea in our mind of how our lives should be or well thought out intentions of what we want to achieve that day. When things don’t turn out according to how I planned them, I know that I get annoyed, but in hindsight I’ve learnt that we shouldn’t worry, fate has a bigger and better plan for all of us.

When I went to university, I never imagined dropping out and when I did I panicked that my whole life plan would come off track. And then, six years ago, when I began working in what I would call a proper fully fledged adult job, I never thought I would leave there, end up somewhere else and leave there again end up where I am now. But maybe I was meant to leave university, maybe I was meant to leave behind my other two jobs to end up here. Maybe I’m not even meant to be where I am now, but maybe it’s a stepping stone to the next level in life.

I feel the same way about people as well, maybe we are meant to meet people along the way, even it turns out that we don’t like them and don’t want them in our lives, just to teach us something about life, about ourselves, about who we want to be or who we don’t want to be.

I find that there are certain things that I do, say, like and dislike that I’ve picked up from other people and I feel as though a part of them is woven into me and that destiny brought us together, even if it meant to tear us apart as well, just so I could take that small part of them with me to make me more of who I am now.

Maybe if we meet someone who turns out not to be the person we thought they were then we will appreciate the next person more. It you meet someone nasty you will be far more grateful for the kindness of the next person you meet.

Sometimes I meet people and think “why didn’t I meet you sooner?” but maybe three years ago I was a different person and if we did meet, it wouldn’t have turned out the same way. Sometimes I meet people I wish I hadn’t but fate has its funny was of doing that, there’s always a reason for it.

I think that on Wednesday when I spilt chocolate ice cream all over my bed sheets, even though it was an accident, it was meant to happen to remind me that I shouldn’t eat in bed.